Y Y and Y?

U and me were two very distant objects and as time moved U and me were destined to study in the same place..............
I wish , I hadn't seen u...but i have seen u..
I wish i hadn't thought of u ...but i thought of u day & nigt....
I wish i don't dream of u...but i dream't of u ...
I wish i was not by ur side in the dreams ....but i was..

And finally I wish if this many things happen Y don't u be by my side for the rest of my life???
I coudn't answer that Y Y and Y?